This is what my future consists of:

If I recall the last thing you said to me..

"You look happy, you should keep it up. Drink another beer"

Rest in Peace, Dev.. Rest in peace.

We always ran into eachother at the same place, you would think we planned it.

& you'd stick your tongue out at me from across the bar.

Then you'd stumble you're way over, & make some entirely innappropriate joke, loud enough for everyone to hear, & it would make me laugh so hard i'd cry.

It's a good thing i've got you right now.

"Give me mercy and I need it now,
I’m a bleed a little poison out,
I’m a cry a little river down
and then I’m setting this whole thing on fire"

Big time trouble.

Someone asked me today what my criteria for a boyfriend was, & she listed off what hers was.

Most of them were not serious, but hilarious nonetheless.. it got me brainstorming.

So, i suppose this is mine:

- Must be nice ( I just realised that this needs to be on top of the list, several days later)

- Can't sleep with anyone else while we're dating ( it seems a bit crazy that I actually have to put that out there, but atleast if I clarify .. it wont happen again.)

- Can't be over 40. Actually, scratch that.. Cant be over 34.( 34 seems like a good, solid age to be a cut off, right?)

- Must be able to put up with the fact I WILL spill food &/or drink everywhere & anywhere.

- Not get embaressed when I laugh so hard that I snort( it happens alot)

- Must be into making blanket forts. Yes, I'm serious.

- Must not be an Aries. Frealz.

- Will not make me go on rollercoasters or anything to do with heights. .& if he does, put up with the fact that I WILL have a mental breakdown.

- Must love my dog Honda, as much as I do.

- Must be able to sit through "Total Recall" & quote the movie with my dad & I.

- Must be able to deal with the fact that I have freak outs at night, & will probably call at unruley times of night for a need to be calmed down.

- His favorite kind of beer needs to be PBR.

- He probably shouldn't check out girls in front of me. And if he does, be alright with the fact that I'm gunna smack him upside the head.

- Have facial tattoos( sorry dad)

-Preferably from Jersey ( thanks Chris & Katie, glad you guys got my back on this one)

- Be okay with the fact that I will someday have facial tattoo's and it may or may not read " LA"

- Must be a terrible dancer, but loves dancing anyways

- Wont get so drunk that he throws up all over himself, & then lies about it.

- Makes me laugh so hard that my face is sore.

- Preferably not in a band- I haven't had much luck in that department so far.

-Doesn't look at himself in the mirror, more than he looks at me.

- Not tell me that he wants to marry me & move to a forest.

- Can't be a dirtbag.

So, I just noticed that this list is basically a huge mix of what all my ex boyfriends have done wrong.

Stay tuned.. this list will get bigger & better.

I have never been as excited to sleep in my own bed, as I was last night.

I miss Honda like crazy. I get to see him tonight after work, and i'm so excited to bring him home, unpack & get back to normal living again.

..

I just wrote a huge paragraph about how much I miss/missed you, and deleted it.

You don't need to know that sort of thing.

Really?! are you into that kinda thing? Into that kinda girl?

Well, that's a disappointment.

Can I just fast track to about a month or two from now?

Please?

Stop looking into it.